when push comes to shove.

this is seriously one of the hardest times of my life. my heart has been ripped out of me stomped into the sidewalk, ground up in a blender, and baked at 400 degrees and put back into my chest. needless to say, i'm hurting. a part of me will always love andrew, and he knows that. and i dont really feel like telling the whole story, but i will say that if i didnt have friends like carah, amanda, courtney and miranda i would be so lost right now its not even funny. miranda made me make a list of the pros and cons of the situation, there are more pros, it just doesnt feel like that way yet. i know it will, but i want it to be now instead of later. i still feel like we're meant to be together and if we are he will figure it out and if not then, hopefully i can eventually pull myself together and move on. anyways, courtney being the amazing person she is, recorded my anthem for right now....stand by rascal flatts, and here's the video. thanks courtney, i love you