help...anyone? please?

i have NO. IDEA. what i am doing with my life. i cant go to school this semester, i dont have financial aid, or money. thats a story in itself and i dont want to talk about it. so i have to find a full time job, give up student government, and pay bills and be an adult. i have no life direction. i have no motivation. i have great friends and that is my only bright spot right now. my parents are completely unsupportive of any decision i make. i dont know what i am supposed to do. i. dont. know. why does life have to be complicated? that is so cliche i know but honestly, think about it...nothing NOTHING in life comes easy, not even the lottery is easy, you have to pay taxes on it when you win big, why is it called the lottery aka money for almost nothing when its really not for nothing. there is always strings attached somehow, there is no way around it. there is never anything for nothing, always some trade off, some sort of deal, some sort of consequnce. i am sick of trade offs, and deals, and consequences for even the good things in life. i am 20 years old and dont want the responsibilities i have. i shouldnt be having a life crisis now...i'm not in my midlife.